差

灰~

很灰很灰很灰很灰

一大堆事情还没完成！！！

我该怎么办？

时间不会停止

它只会往前一直走下去

而我却始终没有跟到它的脚步

远远的被抛弃在最后

很想掴自己巴掌

为什么就是不能好好的善用

那么珍贵的时间

废！！

突然觉得有点累了

想睡却又没有那时间给自己好好睡一觉~

停下了自己的脚步，

不代表地球不在转动

人人都在往前走

自己却又不走

只想停留在这个时段

什么都不做什么都不用想

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phy supplementary test 考得还不错

  不过还是没达到自己的标准

还蛮失落的

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又要介绍一部电影了~

这部电影在说明一个女孩

为了救姐姐的生命才被

体外授精而出生的~

很感人的一个故事

"My Sister's keeper" 

Conceived by means of in vitro fertilization, Anna Fitzgerald (Abigail Breslin) was brought into the world to be a genetic match for her older sister, Kate (Sofia Vassilieva), who suffers from acute promyelocytic leukemia. Because of her sister's dependency on her, Anna is unable to live the life she wants; in and out of the hospital constantly, she cannot take part in extracurricular activities such as cheerleading or soccer. When Kate turns 13 she goes into renal failure. Knowing that she will have to donate one of her kidneys to her sister, Anna sues her parents for medical emancipation and the rights to her own body. Attorney Campbell Alexander (Alec Baldwin) agrees to work for Anna pro bono. The film is interlaced with flashbacks that detail the strong relationship between Kate and Anna, as well as how Kate's illness has affected her siblings' lives. Before the result of the case is known, it is revealed that Kate had asked Anna to file for medical emancipation. Believing that she would not survive the surgery, Kate wants to die. Anna wins the case, and due to her sister's wishes does not donate her kidney. Kate later dies at the hospital. The family moves on with their lives, being changed by Kate's death, but every year on Kate's birthday they go to Montana, which was her favorite place in the world.
Conceived by means of in vitro fertilization, Anna Fitzgerald (Abigail Breslin) was brought into the world to be a genetic match for her older sister, Kate (Sofia Vassilieva), who suffers from acute promyelocytic leukemia. Because of her sister's dependency on her, Anna is unable to live the life she wants; in and out of the hospital constantly, she cannot take part in extracurricular activities such as cheerleading or soccer. When Kate turns 13 she goes into renal failure. Knowing that she will have to donate one of her kidneys to her sister, Anna sues her parents for medical emancipation and the rights to her own body. Attorney Campbell Alexander (Alec Baldwin) agrees to work for Anna pro bono. The film is interlaced with flashbacks that detail the strong relationship between Kate and Anna, as well as how Kate's illness has affected her siblings' lives. Before the result of the case is known, it is revealed that Kate had asked Anna to file for medical emancipation. Believing that she would not survive the surgery, Kate wants to die. Anna wins the case, and due to her sister's wishes does not donate her kidney. Kate later dies at the hospital. The family moves on with their lives, being changed by Kate's death, but every year on Kate's birthday they go to Montana, which was her favorite place in the world.

Conceived by means of in vitro fertilization, Anna Fitzgerald (Abigail Breslin) was brought into the world to be a genetic match for her older sister, Kate (Sofia Vassilieva), who suffers from acute promyelocytic leukemia. Because of her sister's dependency on her, Anna is unable to live the life she wants; in and out of the hospital constantly, she cannot take part in extracurricular activities such as cheerleading or soccer. When Kate turns 13 she goes into renal failure. Knowing that she will have to donate one of her kidneys to her sister, Anna sues her parents for medical emancipation and the rights to her own body. Attorney Campbell Alexander (Alec Baldwin) agrees to work for Anna pro bono. The film is interlaced with flashbacks that detail the strong relationship between Kate and Anna, as well as how Kate's illness has affected her siblings' lives. Before the result of the case is known, it is revealed that Kate had asked Anna to file for medical emancipation. Believing that she would not survive the surgery, Kate wants to die. Anna wins the case, and due to her sister's wishes does not donate her kidney. Kate later dies at the hospital. The family moves on with their lives, being changed by Kate's death, but every year on Kate's birthday they go to Montana, which was her favorite place in the world.

铃声

"我最亲爱的，你过得怎么样~"

最近的电话铃都没响

每到夜深，都在等那熟悉的铃声，

可它却怎样都不响~

在忙吗？还是.......

或许我想多了

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每次独自一人的时候

手指头都会不由自主地在屏幕上搜索你的名字

然后回在青色的键上徘徊~

有股冲动想按下

心里还是在等待铃响的那一刻

希望打来的是你

而不是我自己

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最近小考又开始了

上期的成绩没有很辉煌也没有很差

但是心里还是很不服输

答应自己会好好读书

每次回到宿舍还是不由自主地

开起电脑，

在怎么逼自己，

脑袋还是会在想~

最终还是碰了那个最不能碰的“毒品”

结果一碰，就是整整几个小时！！！

到最后那个该读的却没有读到~

真的不能再这样下去了！

到底有何方法让我不去想它？

反倒让我爱上读书这事！！！！

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朋友的他都在身边

你呢？

我又想起了一件事

我配吗?

你说过不要想那么多

跟着感觉走就是了

不要去害怕

未来会怎样我们不能去推测

只有珍惜现在能拥有的

把握现在能享受的机会

至少不会到最后什么都没有

但是我开始质疑了........

我的心开始想你了~

思念

站在分岔路口，停顿了好久~做不了选择

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渐渐的对这生活麻木了

没有找到属于一个自己的空间

容许自己卸下可怕的面具

心情还是没有平复过

起起落落

就像升降机一样

对自己说

还是自己对自己好些

其他烦琐的事情就不要太认真了

因为由始至终没有人会比你自己对自己更好

在怎么不开心也要把它化为动力

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或许是时候学会一个人的生活

学会把自己放在中心，而不是它人

自私有时不会是坏处

 它可能会帮到你一些

试着别理会他人的眼光

自己觉得是对的就好

不要再环绕着他们了~

别人的闲言闲语

当耳边风就好

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人在外地，好好保护身子
希望我们之间都不会改变
如果真的有那么一天的到来
我一定会完完整整地把它交给你

这是你我最后的考验~

tired

累了，

人累心也累

还是爱逞强裂开嘴巴微笑

 

喜欢一个人的感觉

却又不喜欢自己一个人

很矛盾

或许需要一个心灵相通的朋友

我想开口说话，想聊一大堆有的没的的事情时

可以也跟我一样

没心情说话时

就静静的陪着我

这是情绪化吗？

也许是吧～

不知何时自己变得这个样子了

人累，因为没有足够的时间

让我透气，

心累，因为种种的负担

让我透不过气

昨天phy考试

死无全尸，

原来已没自信的我

看到第一题

就把剩下的方程式全忘光了

 没有一题是我看得明白的

 如何去解答？

在考场对着考卷发呆

足足一小时

却没有一题能完整地写完

然后满足地把考卷交上去

 

心灰了，人疯了

回到家，开个综艺节目来看，

结果笑傻了

但是心情却没有恢复

明天考ｃｈｅｍｉｓｔｒｙ

也是这星期的最后一科，

ｔｅｓｔ １ 的最后一场考试

过了明天，ｔｅｓｔ １ 结束

来临的即将是可怕的ｔｅｓｔ２

没有足够的休息时间，

就马上接下一场

真的很累

大学生活真的这样可怕吗？

 seriously, i miss secondary school life!!!!!

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

接受事实吧～

面对该面对的

不要逃避了，

或许会从中找到不同的乐趣～

只是你还没发现到

对自己说

“加油加油再加油”

不管未来的路多艰难

一定要坚持下去。

 

 

今天碰到你了，

还是没拿勇气跟你打声招呼

ｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘｘ

过了今晚再过五天，你就远走高飞了

愿你梦想成真

何时我们能再相逢？没人能知晓

想你了，真的想你了～

观

对于这世界

到底要怎样看待？

不理会别人怎么看待

只要做好自己的本分就好

始终都没打开那扇封闭的门

要如何让其他人踏进来呢？

说的没错 

要他人看你一眼，自己却没张开眼睛

 何时那把钥匙才会出现呢?

还是这根本是一扇没有钥匙的门？

难道那扇门就紧紧地封闭着吗？

i lose my key

what to do?

静

夜深人静，

室友都睡着了，就剩我在赶报告

开始向往安静的生活

不知何时，

爱说话的我

突然很懒得开口了

爱上了安静地 和朋友在学校漫步

我们俩都没说话就只是静静的走着

喜欢这种感觉

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课业开始繁重起来了

每天都有做不完的功课

每星期都有不同的测验

还是没能适应这样的生活

第二次的测验过了

说实在的，

还是不能坦然地面对远远超越我的朋友

感觉她们很聪明，自己就会卷起来

很自卑。

还是老样子，

不擅沟通，

想必他们都觉得我很没趣吧

很不幽默，很不会找话题

每次跟我走在一起，

就会很不自在，不知道要聊什么~

就会很尴尬~

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今天在考数学前，

心情不是很好，

身体也在颤抖

不知怎么，就发觉很没信心

很恐怖

整个人变哑了，

就是很没心情说话，连笑也很痛苦

眼眶湿湿地，

不过强忍着，不希望这么快就掉眼泪

还是那个样，

爱逞强，不服输

最近心情真的很差

却没有一个人可以借我肩膀靠

没有一个可以让我倾诉的地方

真的很难受

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哭過就好了　傷都會好的
這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨
愛是為了擁抱 為了牽手
不是為了爭吵 為了調頭

哭過就好了　痛都會走的
記憶有限所以它會淘汰壞的
失眠聽歌想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你讓我長大了

最討厭被誤會了　但越解釋越覺得難過
你可以説人會變　但不能説　你會這麼做是我的錯