多麼想念你

累了就躺一躺　煩了就逛一逛
拿起就要學會放
要放你在心上

天黑了就會亮 心痛了就讓一讓
決定了就不要想
多看看月亮　

我多麼想念你
想念你無私愛我的勇氣
在慌亂城市裡　在昏暗深夜裡
你像是月光照亮每條小徑

我多麼想念你
想念你親口說你是愛我地
當喧鬧都暫停　都當人群都散去
你總是　為我開著那一盞燈
等我回去

天黑了就會亮 心痛了就讓一讓
決定了就不要想
多看看月亮

我多麼想念你
想念你無私愛我的勇氣
在慌亂城市裡 在昏暗深夜裡
你像是月光照亮每條小徑

我多麼想念你
想念你親口說你是愛我地
當喧鬧都暫停 都當人群都散去
你總是　為我開著那一盞燈
等我回去

我多麼忌妒你
忌妒你我是多麼愛你地
不想讓你擔心　不要再有懷疑
所以我要親口對你說
我好想你

zero to hero~

went to a musical drama presented by the UTAR PR group

actually this is a utar 10th anivesarry event~

quite a succesfull show~

enjoyed it very much

i think this is the longest moment i laugh in kampar

flashed back,

since i came to kampar, my emotion quite down and i din even laugh that much

it's really a wonderful performance.

well,physic test passed two days ago,

but it really sucks

i really blanked out,

some question is the same as tutorial question

EXACTLY THE SAME!!!

but i cant do it!!! 

i forgot the formulas!!!!!

my mood really super duper down 

i din take my dinner too

i dun hav any appetite

self-blaming the whole night

well, again u made me cry,

always say those word to make me cry out

anyway i felt good after that

but,y r u so mean ?

u know i scared my roomates?

they rarely see me cry,

i did not love to show my fragile side to them.

but this time, i really scared them off....they not dare to talk to me after that.....lolz

yesterday,

after the super deep sleep 

the cloudy mood went off

seem like the heavy burden on my shoulder lift off

then i decided to make that day as a 'bookfree' day

i wont not touch any book that day

totally relax....put aside the stupid test~><

today i rest for the half day,

then start to do my math tutorials 

after recharged my battery

i feel quite relax now, didn't feel so stress ~

so i can conclude here that lack of sleep will be the main cause that cause you so emotioness~

and cry out as loud as you can or just shae with friends,intimates family or even your love one  i am sure its help 

thanks to those friend comfort me when i am so stressful,

your advises really worked on me =）i will remember it

i am so happy to have you all as my friends......love you......muacks

anyway, today the musical drama made my day

should start to do my revision

i must readily prepared for the test 

night, sweet dream......

  

unlucky day =(

everything happened so fast just like lightning
i am not given any minuties even any second for me to ask,
what's happening!!!!!!

i got into an ACCIDENT this afternoon
yet, the accident is not consider as so serious
just a knock into my door
luckily nothing happen to me
but i shivered nonstop
till now still even not stop
i duno how to stop it!!!


what made me so unhappy is the driver that knocked my car!!!!
i din even ask him to pay me
but he ask me to pay him!!!!!
what the hell is going on?
 you are the one who suppose to pay me!!!!!
it's your car knocked on mine
i am the victim!!!
you are such a bastard!!!!!!


today i got my programming test sumore
and i took so much time to let me stay calm
i sucessfully calm down during the math lecture
and concentrate on what the lecture taught
but i failed to do it when i enter the exam hall
i even shivered more
of course some of it is because of the air cond too cold
but mostly is the frighteness
my hand keep shaking and my word is so ugly
i cant even concentrate on the exam
the 'bang' sound and the scene kept flooding in my mind
i have no idea what i am doing in the exam hall
but i tried to force myself at least complete it ,do as much as i can,
but i knew the result will be very very bad
tomorrow will be physic test
but i am in bad mood!!!!!
i will do my best to put it aside
and concentrate on my revision!!!
i cannot fail this subject, it is so important for me,at least i need to pass it!!!

it's such a nightmare for me
my hand still trembling now
i cant stop it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
ohya , not to forget,
today is the release day of SPM result
congratz to my cousin to get 6A+ and 3A
congratz to other frenz who get flying result
i felt happy to you all when you all text me
to those who cant get expecteted result
dun worry its still not the end of the year yet（seem like mine situation now is more worser than you guys!!!!)
keep it up~
smile=）
at least this is the happy part to me recently

i really felt so tired and frustated these day
so many things happen to me
but i know i have to be strong ~
i will try my best~
i will not be defeated so easily~

smile=）
你可以胜利，也可以失败，但你不能屈服。

做一个决定，并不难，难的是付诸行动，并且坚持到底。

sorry

对不起，
我又来报到了~
心情真的非常不好~
我需要一个地方给我纾解一下

有没有一个人可以给我抱一下？
此刻只想抱着一个人
让我大哭一场~
我真的很不好受
没有为什么
就非常想哭~
好像在下雨时
跑出去淋场大雨~
那么就没有人知道那是泪水还是雨水~

我到底怎么了？
我不清楚~


今天一整天都非常不想开口说话
所以今天的我都是带着面具对人
是很厚很厚的面具
最近傻笑的次数也很多

我过的一点都不好！！！！
i am not good at all！！！
screw me~sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

烦

最近，心情很大起大落，
很容易为一些不起眼的东西心情低落

很多时候，你越忙，越容易迷失自我
很容易一下子崩溃
最近都一直在追看tvb剧
其实那剧情没有很催泪
而我却很容易掉下眼泪
是坚强太久了吗？
还是自己太脆弱？

我不知道
只是那也眼泪很容易不自觉的掉下来
我也不清楚为了什么~
就是停不下来~也不想再去压抑着
就这样一个不到一分钟的一段话
我竟然可以哭上一小时

哭着哭着，又是心里会想到家里，会想到你
还记得，刚刚到这里的前几个月我说过我不想家
久了，发现其实我也会想家
来来回回了那么多次，
发现每一次要回来这里的前一晚
我是多么的不舍得
因为在家你可以什么都不去想，
可以很安心的睡一觉
在这里，需要顾虑的太多了~

也许之前，不喜欢受家人的束缚
以前，很多时候，我想要的做很多事情都会被管制
以为，一个人远在他乡，自己有自由了，
没错，的确可以为所欲为
不过，日子久了，还是会发现，原来受束缚也是一种幸福。

hey, suddenly i miss you badly
after watching the tvb drama,
i cried almost every last three episode
it reminded me of our days.
i cried badly on a scene when the guy make the girl to cry out
just like that night how you make me cry just to release my stress....
but this time we both face the same problem
and the stress you need to cope with is bigger than me
but still you are the one who comfort me again
i do not know what to do to help you beside than chatting with you
sorry ,i am always so weak.

i read someone blog :

你有没有试着跟你的孤单聊一聊？

我讨厌孤单

从小它总是缠着我

总是让我心情不愉快

我越是讨厌孤单

我却得到更多的孤单

最后我试着了解

才发现

原来不是孤单缠着我

反而是我跟着孤单

越是逃跑

却跑到更多孤单的地方

它也不喜欢我

所以我们都讨厌对方

终于有一天

我泡了咖啡

我约了孤单

我试着跟孤单聊一聊

那天我们吹着海风

喝着咖啡

听着老胶碟

时间过得好慢

心却跳得非常的轻

才发现孤单并不讨厌

讨厌的是我不曾跟它交谈

所以我渐渐跟它分享

我们试着一起看电影

我们试着一起吃饭

我们一起去兜风

穿越不同大街小巷

渐渐的

我发现孤单也不一样了

我们心情都变开朗

它跟我说

最近变了

变得感情跟我很好

它说它长大了

原来孤单长大了都会变得不一样

现在我不再称它为孤单

因为它已经变成了自由

现在我跟自由感情很好

我真庆幸我认识了孤单

看见彼此的成长

变成了今天的自由

你有没有试着跟你的孤单聊一聊？

morning walk

its friday!!!

next monday will hav my biology test 2 then tuesday will hav prog concept test, and thursday physic test

sumore next monday i need to summit my physic report and tuesday chemistry report!!!!

huh,what a stressful life!!!!

i know this is just a piece of cake in degree life

but i still feel the heavy burden~

i dont hav any class for today

so i went for a morning walk this morning

walk+jog for about 1 hour from my hostel to the danish's garden~

just to relax my mind and refresh myself

i really need a fresh mind to fight for my next week 'war'

i miss swimming pool~!!!

i miss badminton~!!!

i miss tennis~!!!

but the most cheapest exercise over here is just jogging!!!

a court cost RM10 for 1 hour

how can i deal with this?

so better giv up to think of this stuff

bla bla bla

going to take a cool water bath

and ready to do my revision

gimmie luck~!!

1 more month to go for my final 

it's my final foundation examination

hope to pass all with satisfiy result

and just like my advisor said, its the last time i see him hope not to see him next time!!!

goodluck to me~

penicilin!!!!

well, goona stress out
kisiao soon!!!!

this few week is all about RUSH RUSH RUSH
although it's a week without any test
but it kills me too
like i am in debt and been hounded by the creditors!!!
stupid report
okay, is not the report fault its just my laziness!!!
teehee~
i went back to my hometown last thursday
and due to we are moving to new house
almost everday i am busy with cleaning and decorating
that why i have no time to do my report and have to do it the day before pass up!!!
2 reports sum more!!!
(i know it's not a good excuse!!! whatever~at least i gone through it, i slept for 3 hours only!!!)

this is the word that best describe what i am now :
panda!!!!!
till yesterday, FINALLY i can lay in my bed without any stress and have a really really deep sleep!!!!
but stil not enuf for me ,feel sleepy in lecture


and then talk about my post title
wahahahaha,
i am just having some fun to avoid me getting kisiao
i need to find some way to let down  ' my stressfull'  hair
it's happened in math lecture, a question about allergic to penicilin
i took a joke on this word:
penicilin= penis pain killer(i know abit 'yellow' and weird)
==but i am just have fun!!!
haha~

as a UTAR student , i am sure we will be a very potential in facing and managing stress after graduating
at least you can graduate!!!
UTAR is a truely
'U'NIVERSITY 'T'AK 'A'DA 'R'EHAT or
'U'NLIMITIED 'T'EST 'A'SSIGNMENT 'R'EPORT
we need to deal with many many invisible stress
it really make me tired and hate to study
somehow i will ask myself study so hard for what?
did i make a right choice?
can i cope with all this things very well?
no one can answer me~
just remind myself with this sentences:
this is the choice you have made, no matter how hard it is , you still need to walk till the end!!!!!

i saw this pict recently.......this is so true

ya, this is the only way i can keep on fighthing!!!


fine, going to do my tutorial now and sleep soon
 it is better to sleep at 10pm-11pm!!!!!
dun overnight!!!!it is harmful to our body!!!
wish me not going kisiao so soon !!!!
nitez~~~

SEE THIS
!!!!!!!

good morning!!!

good morning world but good night to me!!!!
holyshit, i do my report from 9pm till,now!!!
luckily not until 5 am!!!
i m going to bed now~just to drop down this special night!!!

lalala,
now my brain full of hometown, i miss seafood a lot especially crabs!!!

i miss you><

几米的小小世界

我们一直觉得妥协一些、将就一些、容忍一些可以得到幸福。

但当你的底线放得越低，你得到的就是更低的那个结果！不是吗？

每个人总是仰望和羡慕着别人的幸福，

一回头，却发现自己正被仰望和羡慕着。

            其实，每个人都是幸福的。

      只是，你的幸福，常常在别人眼里。

寂寞是别人不想理你，
孤独是你不想理别人；
无聊是你在想着别人，
空虚是没人在想着你。

一首歌曲，想到你；
一些字眼，想到你；
一篇文字，想到你；
一部电影，想到你；
一张侧脸，想到你；
一个笑容，想到你；
一点温暖，想到你；
才发现，一个不小心，我也变得如此脆弱，
才发现，随便一个不小心就会踩到想你的地雷……
然后把自己也炸得粉碎

insomia

finally, after these horrible terrible and vegetable 2 weeks,
and more math test on monday then
the stupid test is going to be 'pause' for a while
well, 'a while' mean 1 week, but not without other assignment is just without test!!!
mean i am still busy for the assignment!!

after these 2 weeks of burning midnight oil,
i got 'side effect' ------insomia almost everynight,
i went to bed on 12am but i still awake at 3am!!!!
someone please help me get through these~
i hate to stay awake late at night while everyone is sleeping deeply
and i think the 'panda eye' on my face is in the process!!!
it getting darker and darker,
oh no, i hate this!!!

listen to music, read story book...and even counting sheep
i tried everything(but not taking sleeping pill, i knew it's harm) to let me fall asleep but do no avail!!!
what should i do?

i should end this post and continue my math tutorial now,
bye.....get rid of insomia!!!!

Insomnia. Please, do not come near. Not even nearer; go farther.