小丑

脸上的肌肉已经麻痹了，

何时我的脸上是挂着笑容的？又何时我是摆着臭脸呢？

我不知道~

很佩服小丑的敬业，即使身边有多么不开心的事 

只要画上小丑的装扮，再怎么不开心也要把嘴巴裂开来笑。

但是真的有人会发现到其实 小丑也不开心吗？

每个微笑的背后有多少滴泪水呢？

友谊的意义何在？

一个很要好的朋友真的可以成为永远的知己吗？

对我而言，不可能

只要跨过好朋友的那到墙，就是知己了

这也意味着，那人的防备心越来越少

渐渐地真正的人性才在这时候表露出来

即使在那之前他做了多少令你感动的事情

只要跨过这到墙，任何事都是从零开始

还要重新用令 一种心态去面对，

因为这才是真正的他。

他种种的优缺点，你都必须去接受或包容

如果做不到，那就不可能成为知己了。

只是一个在于朋友与知己之间的复杂友谊

这种友谊往往是最脆弱的，

只要一个不小心，他又回到了好朋友的位置，也有可能会回到陌生人的关系

或许奇迹会出现，真的有永远的知己

只是我不知道，这一天几时会降临

总的来说，朋友只有在他需要你时候才是朋友

而如果他不需要你时，你只不过是个路人而以。

我不能包容你的臭脾气

我不能容忍你的牙尖嘴利

我不能忍受你的情绪化

这些足以证明你不是我的知己，

所以请不要把我当成你的知己看待，不要认为我很清楚你的性格

我发现即使你与我认识很久了然而我还是没能了解你！！

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今天的表现不是很满意，声音抖的很厉害！

谁叫自己穷紧张！！

发现今天的你，心情很不好，声音非常的不好听

感觉到你在装没事，但我没揭开你

既然你不想让我知道，就一定有你的理由

when u say i am fine ,

i know u wish to hear me saying ok i got it .

乱

最近心情起伏很大，就像最近的天气一样。
烈日高照的早上，傍晚可以轰隆轰隆的下起雷雨。
我知道繁忙的日子开始了，每星期要应付考试，还有很多assignment, reports 接踵而来。
追不上每一科的课业了，发现自己现在根本不想在读书。
自己的脑袋到底在装什么？上课开始不专心，功课开始不做，就连温习也没有。
不知道自己在搞什么，每当后悔时都已来不及。
或许，我真的该反省了。
今天早上醒来后，发现自己没有跟室友讲到一句话，还摆黑脸呢！
不知道为什么，就是不想讲话。结果她 也莫名其妙的跟着闷起来。
害我很愧疚，好像是我影响到他的。
所以，自己一个人住多好，不需要顾虑到他人，也不需要委屈自己。
就像现在，已经快两点了，而我却没能入睡，房间灯亮着，他们大都因为刺眼而不能睡吧。
但是我就是没有想睡的感觉，反而觉得我在这时间可以左好多东西啊！
终究心里还是会过意不去，连累到他们的睡眠时间，隔天他们还是早上的课呢！
我承认我是夜猫子，我就是喜欢夜晚的宁静但是很矛盾的是我不喜欢夜晚的到来因为这意味着另一天即将开始，然而我今天好像什么事都还没做完。
好了，乱写了一篇 ，发了几个牢骚，是时候睡觉了。
晚安~
祝福我顺顺利利~

1+1 not 2

is there any spider web here?
seem that here had been abonded by someone for a long time
i am not that busy with schoolwork
just busy with hong kong drama!!!
haha~
btw, i m here to refresh it
listening to piano song while blogging can help me write out more my monolog?
i don't know i just love listen to these type of music even when i am happy
many of my friends doesn't like this type of music
due to they will fall asleep after 2nd song~
haha~but if i listen to this song i will be more awake~and i can do well with all my work
i just love those music so much~there will be peace in my mind~

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somehow u will feel lonely eventhough you hav many friends beside you

it is a phenomenon that i cant explain

but  i love the way i am alone

when i am alone,i can do a lot of things without many thought

i know we have to be real infront of people too

however,everyone has their own feeling in their deep deep heart~

i am the one with many faces!

mad, sad, happpy.....etc

i am who i am~

1+1 not possible equal to 2

maybe 1+1 equal to 3 too!!!

i am just crapping here~

ignore me!!!!

maybe  i should pay more attention on my book!!!

haha,duno why

 i just feel like to blogging here today!!!

dun feel like picking up my book and do my revision

XD

next tuesday will be my presentation day~~

4 days left but my script is still very 'clean n white'!!,

claps!!!

not dare to think about it~
just go with an idea
'easy come easy go'
we could not predict what happen next
so just go ahead with what come across my mind on that day
maybe it will go smooth ~who know?haha
take it easy
but easier said than done
i m just writting here doesn't mean that i think in this way
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okay ,it's time to stop~good night~
god bless me for my presentation~

坚强不一定好

i am sure that i am low in communication competence!!

although this should be judged by another person but not myself,

but i would say that everyone who met me should knew.

sometimes,i really don't know what to say in a situation,even a very normal situation!

i have tried to overcome this habit many mnay years ago,

yet, i failed to do so

maybe i am not belong to this,

maybe i am not feeling comfortable to this

anyway,i am still finding who am i actually

i believe these day will come to the real!

it's 3rd week of semester 2

everything goes well and smooth

hope that it will stay long

at least i am not that emotional these day...

i am trying my best to control it

but somehow the ecs lecture class make me more emo

i duno why it's just like a class that recalling my personality

i will start to think more when i am in lecture class

maybe i am too sensitive about those words

but i start to love attending ecs class 

just a feeling that it's a place where i can upgrade myself

i learnt a lot there~

"maybe i am not the best but i hope i will be best~one day"

想快点一个人住的欲望越来越强
会希望有自己独处的空间
做自己想做的东西
生活的作息加上很爱户外活动的我
真的完完全全被绑住了

也许我是个想太多的人
我就是太在意别人对我的眼光
为什么自我感觉就是那么差！！
我会害怕如果有一天
我爆发时，会发生什么事情？
我不敢想~

突然听到张惠妹的‘剪爱’

不知道为什么突然有点想哭

坚强太久了吗啊 ？

想了想，为何就是要那么折腾自己？

硬要把那层冷冷的外壳套在自己身上

我不知道，也许这是一种自我保护吧~

‘把爱剪碎了随风飘向大海~

有许多事，让眼泪洗过更明白

天真的我，张开双手以为撑得住未来’