mosquito

these day, my room full of the 'mosquito corpse' 

every night before sleep i swept the floor, and the next morning ....again ....it's full

mosquito, can you please leave me alone??

you make me cant sleep well recently

because of your 'hunger', my hands and legs will full of your 'bite's mark'......

it's itchy and sometime i scratched till it bleed!!!

just leave me alone!!!!

i hate you mosquito, and these day the weather was so hot,

i was like in the oven , even that i just take bath!!!

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just finished my first structural biochemistry test 1 today,

and now i should start revise my anatomy and physiology 1

AnP test will be on next next week!!!!

time flies, i am running out of time now!!!!

if you ask me izit hard to study biomed?

i would say that if you love them then it should be ok~

am i loving them???

i duno, maybe i will know after the result came out......

joined biological science society few days ago,

and wanna join art and crarft society 

i want to earn my USSDC point to get a cartificate!!!

i got 24 point  only, there is still 76 point to go!!!

study overnight for biochem, feel sleep now,

going to bed , night world......

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我想你了，可是我不能對你說，

就像開滿梨花的樹上，永遠不可能結出蘋果。

我想你了，可是我不能對你說，

就像高掛天邊的彩虹，永遠無人能夠觸摸。

我想你了，可是我不能對你說，

就像火車的軌道，永遠不會有輪船駛過。

我想你了，可我，真的不能對你說。

怕只怕，說了，對你，也是一種折磨。

i t'aime beaucoup,

espérons vous voir bientôt

gosh!!!

the consequences of going to the festival of the mind!!!!!
just done my AnP report
it's 4 am!!!
i broke my record~~~
but there is nothing to be proud
i will die fast!!!!
gosh, pretty sleepy now~
night~morning too

festival of the mind

this is the first time which i went to the programme organised by utar

(always crashed with my date for hometown bfor )

the workshop was fun,

and it's enriched my knowledge~

anyway, 

i spent my weekends for this programme,

which i should use it to do my lab report(due date is next monday) and revise my biochem(midterm is around)

but i felt 'full' and 'statisfied'

this is the most important things~

i dont mind to burn midnight oil for doing those report and revision~

it was so long ago i had this feeling

although it was tiring, yet its filled my day =)

hope to join more activities next time~(of course with the permitted  time)

some interesting part in the programmes( it's a bit long ^^) :

i went to the booth for FINGERPRINT ANALYSIS

it was like a test for our 'luck, futue....."

then the result showed

1) friendly but in a way of i will not go to the stranger but is waiting them to find me(so true!!!! but that the thing i want to change!!!)but they say this cannot blame myself , coz i am who i am =(

2) very soft hearted (bingo, i juz like to act cool but actually i am very gan dongl!!!hahaha......opss...i pissed someone else!!!!)

3) peace lover, do not like war(eg, when my friend got into a fight, i will go and kepo and help them)(is it too KEPO???)

4)  do things in a very systematic way, wil get panic when the steps is not listed properly (just like if u want 

me to do something, u need to state clearly ur step, and with a clearly stated step , i will do it very well, if not then i will not finish it until u tell me the next step)(ya, it' true also.....i need to have a 'draft' before start doing every things, if not then i will confuse you all)(it was very obvious on my academic staff, i 'm the one who always confuse everyone, and scared them off, haha) 

PS: if i got money i will go for the full test(originally RM500++, but now offer RM199 ) =(

NEXT,

went to a "feet test" also (i duno what it's called)  

it's a test where u stand on a mat then the computer will shows the result

the result will shows which side of ur leg is more 'tired'

then  based on it , it will explain how they affect to ur body health~

i was tested out, my left leg is more longer, and it caused my pelvic bone to be slightly segek

this is due to i always 翘脚......i will try my best to stop this posture!!!

and i will suffer from 腰酸( ya it's true, i cant squat too long)

and slowly my left leg will bent outward~

it's disastrous!!!( i am thinking of the muscle cramp....does this related too??)

okay, gonna end here, (it's 1.30 am!!!)
lastly, this is the 'goodies' got it from the programmes~

it's a lot~i love the ' purple fish ' card, it is omega3 fish oil~

i am happy today, hope that tomorrow is a happy day also~~

looking forward it!!!!

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我只是不想长大

永永远远做个长不大的小孩

changes~

feel like to blog here 

eventhough i did not finish my assignment yet....

sigh.....there's lots of things waiting for me to be done!!!!

this afternoon,i was thinking the past tense of myself

compared it with now

did i changed better? or worser?

scrolled back and read  the post i wrote....

found out that

i was much more 'emo' during that time

but for now, i;m pretty sure i changed better for this

i did learn a lot....not to be so care about other's thoughts

just be myself.....be the most special one,as we all have our own characteristic

so now, i live more happier, no more negative thought

HOWEVER, the thing i don't like the most now is, my tears

seem like my tears easily fell off,

i duno how many times i cried for this year.

i thought i was strong enuf but i 'm wrong,

i still can't bear with the big loaded stress.

i hope to be more stronger,

i will do it....

the worst things is i became more lazy physically 

i do jog or swim at least once a week LAST TIME

but now, there is TOTALLY ZERO

i was like a "宅女", staying all the day in my hostel and not going out for any social activities except for academic thingy....

felt like i was wasting the most precious 'adolescence' time?

normally, at this age, what we do is hanging out with friends and making friends around

but i just got myself in a 'lame' lifestyle

independency,

this is the one that 'you' told me many mnay times 

but till now i think i still can't manage to do it well

i am very dependent, 

looked back all the way i grew from kindergarten til now(uni)

i will always got a someone be with me

i meant big things/tasks, 

like go university with your own,without any friends there(this is the part, i care the most) 

i thought i will be like this, during my secondary school, but things doesn't go like what i thought

i had a 'gang' of friends along with me, and this causes me to be limited in my own way,

they don't really like outdoor activity and socialize around.

which was opposite of mine

used to see a series of photo of how their uni life goes

all seem to be so memorable and happy

but why my uni life looks so dull ,my secondary school life looks more better than now =(

i should colour it, to become a colourful memories for me

it would be a nice memories 

okay, summary,

i need to be stronger, and i need to socialize with people.... and colours my life with many many beutiful things

from now on i will be a better man!!!

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miss u badly =(

hope to meet u soon

do you changes a lot?

 i do have many many things to be share with you

my happiness, worries, down moment and so on

we both knew it 

it's a tired  journey,

though i believe we can do it

we had gone through so much,....

good luck in your test and presentation

 

busy busy busy

finally, i am able to update my blog,

will be a 'rubbish' update this time,

kinda busy for this few weeks,(non academic staff) 

even i done my things, i was too lazy to blog here

but, have to say

start from this week on , i will become a 'busy body' again(and this time is academic staff)

left behind too much of my revision and assignment 

started to feel the burden......kinda late? 

22 bone's name just for our head skull to be remember!!!

and another 32 for upper and lower limbs!!!! to be continue.......

btw, i still love AnP~i hate nutrition and structural biochem!!!

je deteste cette!!!

went back hometown last friday

my brken bedframe was fixed :)

my dad fixed it!!

look so robotic~

so, i have a bed with 4 wooden legs and 2 steel legs!!!

thank you daddy XD

HAPPY PAPA'S DAY

and 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

found from internet,

should print it out and paste on the wall of my study table, 

i think this will be a good reminder fro me!!!

哈佛图书馆的二十条训言：

1.此刻打盹，你将做梦；而此刻学习，你将圆梦。

2.我荒废的今日，正是昨日殒身之人祈求的明日。

3.觉得为时已晚的时候，恰恰是最早的时候。

4.勿将今日之事拖到明日。

5.学习时的苦痛是暂时的，未学到的痛苦是终生的。

6.学习这件事，不是缺乏时间，而是缺乏努力。

7.幸福或许不排名次，但成功必须。

8.学习并不是人生的全部。但既然连人生的一部分―学习也无法征服，还能做什么呢？

9.请享受无法回避的痛苦。

10.只有比别人更早、更勤奋地努力，才能尝到成功的滋味。

11.谁也不能随随便便成功，它来自彻底的自我管理和毅力。

12.时间在流逝。

13.现在流的口水，将成为明天的眼泪。

14.狗一样地学，绅士一样地玩。

15.今天不走，明天要跑。

16.投资未来的人，是忠于现实的人。

17.受教育程度代表收入。

18.一天过完，不会再来。

19.即使现在，对手也不停地翻动书页。

20.没有艰辛，便无所获。

hav no idea what to blog, then let see some "articles" (duno whether it is called 'article"?)

and good night......

再见了，我的伙伴

2010年的某一天，你在我家门前徘徊，
因为缘分，我们收养了你
就这样，你住在我们家快两年了

还记得，你身上有骚子
我们买了药把它涂在你身上，结果嘴馋的你，舔了那药
你就食物中毒了
那时的你，每走一步就‘扑街’，还一直呕吐
吓死我们整家人
半夜把你送到大山脚去看兽医
幸好，你最后没事了

后来，你因为吃太多骨头
身体到处腐烂
我们又卖药喷在你的伤口上
每次在喷射药物时，你都会发出微微的呻吟声

你，就这样成了我们家的一份子
我们为你搭了个屋子在草场边
那边有木板给你当床睡（怕你着凉）
结果你却每次都跑到铁门前的地上睡
还自己把剩水的桶咬过来
真是拿你没办法！！

认识你之前，我最怕猫狗了，（现在还是怕，只是不怕你）XDXD
不知为什么只要有毛的动物我都会怕
最讨厌在外吃饭时，有猫狗从我椅子下走过！！
还记得一次，因为怕而缩起了脚，把整张桌子打翻了！！
结果你，（只有你）让我破例为你冲凉，让我不再怕你，成了我的伙伴~

以前，你只能吃我们的剩饭到
现在，我们为了喂胖你，给你买狗料不再给你吃那些不营养的食物
以前，你到处‘拉屎’
现在，你学乖了，不会到处‘拉屎’

结果，以前，你不会过马路
现在，你还是不会过马路！！！
就这样，你走了
我再也没有机会‘抚摸你的毛’了！！！
我再也没机会给你冲凉了！！！
安息吧~rest in peace~
再见了~au revoir mon chien~

这是我们唯一有你在里面的照片(可惜，你并没有对镜头~）

每次，我真的都明白你要传达的话吗？

家家有本难念的经

心情极差的一天，
第一次，在电话里哭了，
还不是在自己房间里，而是在朋友家~
又再一次把他们吓到了

为什么，自己变得越来越脆弱？
时常动不动就红了眼眶~
以前的那个我，去了哪里？
好讨厌现在的这个样子！！！


这学期，过了一星期，
却还不是很适应得来
烦恼，是不可避免的
课业，金钱负担，交际。。。

沟通这门学问，真的好深奥！！
这一个星期里，一直逼自己一定要主动去认识新朋友
无论如何，人总要沟通
现在，大学时期都没办法去沟通
那，以后踏出社会时， 我该怎么办？
所以，不管怎样，尽我所能，踏出那一步吧~

至于课业方面，是有点陌生不过还不至于不喜欢
虽然很多生词，但是我相信只要自己很努力，一定能的
知道，以前的读书方法（临时抱佛脚）严重不正确！！
所以，现在规定自己，一定要‘今日事今日毕’
每个晚上睡前的三小时，一定要复习~
ps :说实话，不知道这‘规定’能维持多久？
不过，目前为止，还算是有做到
希望以后的两个月也能做到！！！

金钱方面，现在对我来说是个很大的问题
foundation 那一年里，除了学费方面是父母的钱，
剩余的杂费都是在用我之前做part time job 的工钱
现在，那些钱花得七七八八了，
新年的红包钱花完了，我这十年的储蓄也快没了~
这个月的房租，我不够钱还了~
是时候了~

唉，家家有本难念的经~

life is not fair, get used to it