changes~

feel like to blog here 

eventhough i did not finish my assignment yet....

sigh.....there's lots of things waiting for me to be done!!!!

this afternoon,i was thinking the past tense of myself

compared it with now

did i changed better? or worser?

scrolled back and read  the post i wrote....

found out that

i was much more 'emo' during that time

but for now, i;m pretty sure i changed better for this

i did learn a lot....not to be so care about other's thoughts

just be myself.....be the most special one,as we all have our own characteristic

so now, i live more happier, no more negative thought

HOWEVER, the thing i don't like the most now is, my tears

seem like my tears easily fell off,

i duno how many times i cried for this year.

i thought i was strong enuf but i 'm wrong,

i still can't bear with the big loaded stress.

i hope to be more stronger,

i will do it....

the worst things is i became more lazy physically 

i do jog or swim at least once a week LAST TIME

but now, there is TOTALLY ZERO

i was like a "宅女", staying all the day in my hostel and not going out for any social activities except for academic thingy....

felt like i was wasting the most precious 'adolescence' time?

normally, at this age, what we do is hanging out with friends and making friends around

but i just got myself in a 'lame' lifestyle

independency,

this is the one that 'you' told me many mnay times 

but till now i think i still can't manage to do it well

i am very dependent, 

looked back all the way i grew from kindergarten til now(uni)

i will always got a someone be with me

i meant big things/tasks, 

like go university with your own,without any friends there(this is the part, i care the most) 

i thought i will be like this, during my secondary school, but things doesn't go like what i thought

i had a 'gang' of friends along with me, and this causes me to be limited in my own way,

they don't really like outdoor activity and socialize around.

which was opposite of mine

used to see a series of photo of how their uni life goes

all seem to be so memorable and happy

but why my uni life looks so dull ,my secondary school life looks more better than now =(

i should colour it, to become a colourful memories for me

it would be a nice memories 

okay, summary,

i need to be stronger, and i need to socialize with people.... and colours my life with many many beutiful things

from now on i will be a better man!!!

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miss u badly =(

hope to meet u soon

do you changes a lot?

 i do have many many things to be share with you

my happiness, worries, down moment and so on

we both knew it 

it's a tired  journey,

though i believe we can do it

we had gone through so much,....

good luck in your test and presentation