生命力

27 March 2012

多麼想念你

累了就躺一躺　煩了就逛一逛
拿起就要學會放
要放你在心上

天黑了就會亮心痛了就讓一讓
決定了就不要想
多看看月亮　

我多麼想念你
想念你無私愛我的勇氣
在慌亂城市裡　在昏暗深夜裡
你像是月光照亮每條小徑

我多麼想念你
想念你親口說你是愛我地
當喧鬧都暫停　都當人群都散去
你總是　為我開著那一盞燈
等我回去

天黑了就會亮心痛了就讓一讓
決定了就不要想
多看看月亮

我多麼想念你
想念你無私愛我的勇氣
在慌亂城市裡在昏暗深夜裡
你像是月光照亮每條小徑

我多麼想念你
想念你親口說你是愛我地
當喧鬧都暫停都當人群都散去
你總是　為我開著那一盞燈
等我回去

我多麼忌妒你
忌妒你我是多麼愛你地
不想讓你擔心　不要再有懷疑
所以我要親口對你說
我好想你

25 March 2012

zero to hero~

went to a musical drama presented by the UTAR PR group

actually this is a utar 10th anivesarry event~

quite a succesfull show~

enjoyed it very much

i think this is the longest moment i laugh in kampar

flashed back,

since i came to kampar, my emotion quite down and i din even laugh that much

it's really a wonderful performance.

well,physic test passed two days ago,

but it really sucks

i really blanked out,

some question is the same as tutorial question

EXACTLY THE SAME!!!

but i cant do it!!!

i forgot the formulas!!!!!

my mood really super duper down

i din take my dinner too

i dun hav any appetite

self-blaming the whole night

well, again u made me cry,

always say those word to make me cry out

anyway i felt good after that

but,y r u so mean ?

u know i scared my roomates?

they rarely see me cry,

i did not love to show my fragile side to them.

but this time, i really scared them off....they not dare to talk to me after that.....lolz

yesterday,

after the super deep sleep

the cloudy mood went off

seem like the heavy burden on my shoulder lift off

then i decided to make that day as a 'bookfree' day

i wont not touch any book that day

totally relax....put aside the stupid test~><

today i rest for the half day,

then start to do my math tutorials

after recharged my battery

i feel quite relax now, didn't feel so stress ~

so i can conclude here that lack of sleep will be the main cause that cause you so emotioness~

and cry out as loud as you can or just shae with friends,intimates family or even your love one i am sure its help

thanks to those friend comfort me when i am so stressful,

your advises really worked on me =）i will remember it

i am so happy to have you all as my friends......love you......muacks

anyway, today the musical drama made my day

should start to do my revision

i must readily prepared for the test

night, sweet dream......

21 March 2012

unlucky day =(

everything happened so fast just like lightning
i am not given any minuties even any second for me to ask,
what's happening!!!!!!

i got into an ACCIDENT this afternoon
yet, the accident is not consider as so serious
just a knock into my door
luckily nothing happen to me
but i shivered nonstop
till now still even not stop
i duno how to stop it!!!

what made me so unhappy is the driver that knocked my car!!!!
i din even ask him to pay me
but he ask me to pay him!!!!!
what the hell is going on?
you are the one who suppose to pay me!!!!!
it's your car knocked on mine
i am the victim!!!
you are such a bastard!!!!!!

today i got my programming test sumore
and i took so much time to let me stay calm
i sucessfully calm down during the math lecture
and concentrate on what the lecture taught
but i failed to do it when i enter the exam hall
i even shivered more
of course some of it is because of the air cond too cold
but mostly is the frighteness
my hand keep shaking and my word is so ugly
i cant even concentrate on the exam
the 'bang' sound and the scene kept flooding in my mind
i have no idea what i am doing in the exam hall
but i tried to force myself at least complete it ,do as much as i can,
but i knew the result will be very very bad
tomorrow will be physic test
but i am in bad mood!!!!!
i will do my best to put it aside
and concentrate on my revision!!!
i cannot fail this subject, it is so important for me,at least i need to pass it!!!

it's such a nightmare for me
my hand still trembling now
i cant stop it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
ohya , not to forget,
today is the release day of SPM result
congratz to my cousin to get 6A+ and 3A
congratz to other frenz who get flying result
i felt happy to you all when you all text me
to those who cant get expecteted result
dun worry its still not the end of the year yet（seem like mine situation now is more worser than you guys!!!!)
keep it up~
smile=）
at least this is the happy part to me recently

i really felt so tired and frustated these day
so many things happen to me
but i know i have to be strong ~
i will try my best~
i will not be defeated so easily~

smile=）
你可以胜利，也可以失败，但你不能屈服。

做一个决定，并不难，难的是付诸行动，并且坚持到底。

18 March 2012

sorry

对不起，
我又来报到了~
心情真的非常不好~
我需要一个地方给我纾解一下

有没有一个人可以给我抱一下？
此刻只想抱着一个人
让我大哭一场~
我真的很不好受
没有为什么
就非常想哭~
好像在下雨时
跑出去淋场大雨~
那么就没有人知道那是泪水还是雨水~

我到底怎么了？
我不清楚~

今天一整天都非常不想开口说话
所以今天的我都是带着面具对人
是很厚很厚的面具
最近傻笑的次数也很多

我过的一点都不好！！！！
i am not good at all！！！
screw me~sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17 March 2012

烦

最近，心情很大起大落，
很容易为一些不起眼的东西心情低落

很多时候，你越忙，越容易迷失自我
很容易一下子崩溃
最近都一直在追看tvb剧
其实那剧情没有很催泪
而我却很容易掉下眼泪
是坚强太久了吗？
还是自己太脆弱？

我不知道
只是那也眼泪很容易不自觉的掉下来
我也不清楚为了什么~
就是停不下来~也不想再去压抑着
就这样一个不到一分钟的一段话
我竟然可以哭上一小时

哭着哭着，又是心里会想到家里，会想到你
还记得，刚刚到这里的前几个月我说过我不想家
久了，发现其实我也会想家
来来回回了那么多次，
发现每一次要回来这里的前一晚
我是多么的不舍得
因为在家你可以什么都不去想，
可以很安心的睡一觉
在这里，需要顾虑的太多了~

也许之前，不喜欢受家人的束缚
以前，很多时候，我想要的做很多事情都会被管制
以为，一个人远在他乡，自己有自由了，
没错，的确可以为所欲为
不过，日子久了，还是会发现，原来受束缚也是一种幸福。

hey, suddenly i miss you badly
after watching the tvb drama,
i cried almost every last three episode
it reminded me of our days.
i cried badly on a scene when the guy make the girl to cry out
just like that night how you make me cry just to release my stress....
but this time we both face the same problem
and the stress you need to cope with is bigger than me
but still you are the one who comfort me again
i do not know what to do to help you beside than chatting with you
sorry ,i am always so weak.

i read someone blog :