miracle do happens

2014's valentines day falls in the same day as chap gor meh?

or should i wrote

2014's chap gor meh is the same day as Valentines day?

Anyway, it's a very meaningful day
roses are sold every corner in the campus even the roadside!

din thought of somebody will give me any one of it,
just went to class as usual, eating lunch normally....

Surprisingly, i received a rose and a chocolate

 from 2 diff friends that are totally not close to me!

they were my juniors,

maybe they are just so loving

or 

maybe i helped them before

i don't know

just feel so warm when received those "gift" 

it's lighten up my days...

make me believe that miracles could happen anywhere!

30 minutes more, it has come to the end of 2014 CNY!

there's lots of things i wanted to blog about....

but i was too lazy to blog and started to become busy next week onwards

So, let's just summarize all the things i wanted to share

Just the beginning of 2014, gone through lots of ups and downs! Mostly is happy things!

2014, lots of problem with my car - luckily everybody is safe and sound!

2014, travel to KL with friends (ALONE), bought some new year shirts for myself.

2014, makes some friends which are Penangites during my trip to KL

2014, had a very special CNY in Kuching for the 1st time! (experienced rich people lifestyle) 

open house in the house~

2014, tried super fresh salmon and awesome sushiesssss freshly prepare in da house by professionals...

 2014, tried lots of home-cooked delicious food- lamb chop, layer cakes, swiss roll, curry lamb....etc( i like the swiss roll the most!!)

2014, 1st time in my life to light up fireworkssSS....yea boxes of fireworks, not the pop pop we used to play

Also, experienced in real life --boxes of fireworks firing in front of me continuously for 30 minutes non-stop! it does pollute the air =( But the moment when the dark sky is being lighten up with colourful fireworks is really amazing! Those Guests-couples kissing everywhere!  can't manage to upload the video....it's too large!

2014, tasted super EXPENSIVE alcoholic drinks and learn the ways to drink it !the cheapest is RM 300 

2014, finally wore a dress, i mean a dress not school uniform! which i think my last time was still in kindergarten (because of the trend now! dresses hang over every shops...no choice)

2014, bought myself a hair styling tools (started to become girly ??!)

Lastly, 2014, i am single but not available! 

当。。。

小时候，
当，我觉得事情是这样的时候
往往就不是这样，
当，我觉得应该这样做的时候
却做了最不应该的，
当，我觉得我会朝那方向走时
往往却往反方向走，
当，我觉得我做对应该被称赞时
往往就会被骂的狗血淋头，

现在，长大了，
事与愿违，好像也离不开我....
每每，做一件事我都会特害怕，特谨慎！
结果，没差！还是没有我想象中的美好！

可能，这些事让我留下了不少阴影，
常常，我会超级后悔自己所做的决定，所做的一切，包括说的话，做过的事！
即使没有人责备或不赞同，
可是就那么一瞬间，我自己会变得好渺小！看不起自己！恨死自己！
甚至，我会怀疑自己是不是不属于这里！
这个世界好像容不下我！
到哪里，都是怪胎一个！

或许是我太在意了，
或许他人并不这么认为，
或许是我把自己放的太大了
或许我不应该有这种想法
或许乐观点，看透些，
或许就不会那么的辛苦！

When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. And when life is bitter, say thank you and grow.

【要学会高傲的活着】
如果没有人陪，学着一个人听音乐看书写文字，这是个好习惯。
不要对人随便发脾气。
如果一个人开始怠慢你，请你离开他。
不要为了任何人任何事折磨自己。
学会承受痛苦。有些话，适合烂在心里，有些痛苦，适合无声无息的忘记。

New start...

Will it be a new start? or just my thought that drove me away from the reality?

Do you know that you reached my borderline?
i do not even know when will i explode...
all i can do now is just keep steping back...
seriously, i hate this...
can you just be a little thoughtful? think of other people too...
here i found the differences...

all i want now is just peace...
PEACE.......
yea, i hate fighting ><
bcoz i am always the loser...

hope there is another brand new start...
remember what u had said. and do it!

Peace after storm

Finally, everything back to normal..
no more insomnia, no more tension and no more liars!!!

everything happen in a day....
we cried, we angry, we laughed and then it's time to say goodbye.

Everything happen for a reason,
i believe after this unforgettable experience,
i am stronger than before
i get to know the darkness side of the reality outside..

Although, its just 3 days,
i deeply realize the says, 度日如年
i am impressed by myself to live through this few days

Luckily, there was still humanity over there
i am blessed to have such nice colleague that understand me
and stand by my side
i am glad to have u guys

Now everything is back to normal...
Have a nice sleep and continue counting down for my freedom again!

Time to sleep
Will have a very good sleep for sure

i am not the BALL

being a FOOTBALL that been kicked here and there made me feel so sick.....

today my friends and me have been transferred from Dynapharm to Dynacosmo 

the reason is because too many people is going to resign....so need freshy to continue the job....

but what for they sent us to there for few weeks since we are going to finish our intern 3 weeks more.....

sumore they want us to hide our identity which as a trainee.....

it was totally so stress to work under the lies!

since i am a trainee sure there's a lot of procedure i duno....

then how can i act like i am very pro!

At first i thought i was helping them to do some documentation or maybe some lab testing only

but then....it turns out we are taking their job "FULL JOB"

which is so strange to us....

and we have meeting every morning!

my godness.....i feel so stressed!

ish....

so now i have to hope and pray for everyday go smooth

Yesterday 3 new trainees just came to Dynapharm

and we just started to happy that our job will be shared with the others 3 trainee...

manatau....the 2nd day, we have been transferred.......

just to release my angers here....

life still move on

think in another way that we can learn more and get to know the real working place

maybe this is a nice experience for me....