01 March 2014

1314

“滴答滴答” 
宁静酷热的深夜,秒针跳动的声音特别响亮
抬头看了一下时间,啊~又是一点了!
这学期,答应了自己要早睡早起...
的确,实践了一段时间
到头来,这几个星期都在熬夜~
刚做完一部分的assignment....打算明天再继续了
结果熄了灯,闭上眼,发现自己又睡不着了
那就索性打开笔电,更新一下部落格吧~~

是的,又睡不着!
前几天,不晓得为什么就是睡不着,
整夜在床上翻来覆去,一直在自我催眠,向自己报时间,想让自己入眠
反而反效果,好像给自己压力了!直到天空开始变亮时,也就是7点多
才昏昏的睡了下去,
怎知一睡就睡到太阳塞屁股,12 点了~
吃了午餐,又继续到头睡,
整个人就是没有神,没有力是的,
这一睡就睡到太阳下山了~
吃了晚餐,做了些事情又继续补眠!

结果,现在自己感冒了,还有些喉咙痛和咳嗽!
应该是免疫系统下降了 再加上现在的天气!
简直就是好时机啊!

好了,半小时过了~
是时候睡觉了!病还么好呢!
晚安

1314,这一天对现在的我来说没什意义~就好好的分配自己的时间吧,过得充实些,做些有意的事情.
一个星期就只有那7天,我就被6样assignments, tests, reports占据了~





16 February 2014

过度考虑

By Owen Yap ( 叶剑锋 )
“过度考虑别人的感受,是一种对自己的不认同。当每做一件事都在考虑‘别人怎么看’时,你其实已经在放弃自己了。总是活在别人眼神里的人,也等于从来不曾存在过。”

人生在世,完全忽视别人的目光,无法进步;过分在意别人的目光,则容易迷失自己。
Why should you live your life through someone else’s eyes or rather a compilation of other people’s perspectives, but not your own?

15 February 2014

miracle do happens

2014's valentines day falls in the same day as chap gor meh?
or should i wrote
2014's chap gor meh is the same day as Valentines day?
Anyway, it's a very meaningful day
roses are sold every corner in the campus even the roadside!
din thought of somebody will give me any one of it,
just went to class as usual, eating lunch normally....

Surprisingly, i received a rose and a chocolate
 from 2 diff friends that are totally not close to me!
they were my juniors,
maybe they are just so loving
or 
maybe i helped them before
i don't know
just feel so warm when received those "gift" 
it's lighten up my days...
make me believe that miracles could happen anywhere!

30 minutes more, it has come to the end of 2014 CNY!
there's lots of things i wanted to blog about....
but i was too lazy to blog and started to become busy next week onwards
So, let's just summarize all the things i wanted to share

Just the beginning of 2014, gone through lots of ups and downs! Mostly is happy things!
2014, lots of problem with my car - luckily everybody is safe and sound!
2014, travel to KL with friends (ALONE), bought some new year shirts for myself.
2014, makes some friends which are Penangites during my trip to KL
2014, had a very special CNY in Kuching for the 1st time! (experienced rich people lifestyle) 
open house in the house~
2014, tried super fresh salmon and awesome sushiesssss freshly prepare in da house by professionals...
 2014, tried lots of home-cooked delicious food- lamb chop, layer cakes, swiss roll, curry lamb....etc( i like the swiss roll the most!!)
2014, 1st time in my life to light up fireworkssSS....yea boxes of fireworks, not the pop pop we used to play
Also, experienced in real life --boxes of fireworks firing in front of me continuously for 30 minutes non-stop! it does pollute the air =( But the moment when the dark sky is being lighten up with colourful fireworks is really amazing! Those Guests-couples kissing everywhere!  can't manage to upload the video....it's too large!

2014, tasted super EXPENSIVE alcoholic drinks and learn the ways to drink it !the cheapest is RM 300 
2014, finally wore a dress, i mean a dress not school uniform! which i think my last time was still in kindergarten (because of the trend now! dresses hang over every shops...no choice)
2014, bought myself a hair styling tools (started to become girly ??!)
Lastly, 2014, i am single but not available! 





22 January 2014

当。。。

小时候,
当,我觉得事情是这样的时候
往往就不是这样,
当,我觉得应该这样做的时候
却做了最不应该的,
当,我觉得我会朝那方向走时
往往却往反方向走,
当,我觉得我做对应该被称赞时
往往就会被骂的狗血淋头,

现在,长大了,
事与愿违,好像也离不开我....
每每,做一件事我都会特害怕,特谨慎!
结果,没差!还是没有我想象中的美好!

可能,这些事让我留下了不少阴影,
常常,我会超级后悔自己所做的决定,所做的一切,包括说的话,做过的事!
即使没有人责备或不赞同,
可是就那么一瞬间,我自己会变得好渺小!看不起自己!恨死自己!
甚至,我会怀疑自己是不是不属于这里!
这个世界好像容不下我!
到哪里,都是怪胎一个!

或许是我太在意了,
或许他人并不这么认为,
或许是我把自己放的太大了
或许我不应该有这种想法
或许乐观点,看透些,
或许就不会那么的辛苦!

When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. And when life is bitter, say thank you and grow.

【要学会高傲的活着】
如果没有人陪,学着一个人听音乐看书写文字,这是个好习惯。
不要对人随便发脾气。
如果一个人开始怠慢你,请你离开他。
不要为了任何人任何事折磨自己。
学会承受痛苦。有些话,适合烂在心里,有些痛苦,适合无声无息的忘记。

06 January 2014

New start...

Will it be a new start? or just my thought that drove me away from the reality?

Do you know that you reached my borderline?
i do not even know when will i explode...
all i can do now is just keep steping back...
seriously, i hate this...
can you just be a little thoughtful? think of other people too...
here i found the differences...

all i want now is just peace...
PEACE.......
yea, i hate fighting ><
bcoz i am always the loser...

hope there is another brand new start...
remember what u had said. and do it!